Sometimes you just need a shoulder... (IMPORTANT: READ IF YOU'RE EXPECTING ANY REQUESTS/ART TRADES FROM ME) by
@tarysand (Taryn Sanders)
It's just been one of those months. Things are just not going well in my life at the moment, and it's times like this that I just wish I could have someone hold me while I cry, and let it all out until their shirt is totally drenched. Crying is all I seem to do lately. When I'm driving, when I'm at work, when I'm in my room, just about anytime I think no one's looking. And for no reason at all, nothing even sets me off. It's pretty pathetic. Hell, I think I'm about to cry right now. I hate my job, my life is going nowhere, and I feel like no one in the world cares at all about anything I do. And just when things couldn't get ANY worse, our computer had to be reset, so all my art, fanfics, writing, pictures, and art programs... Gone. Everything I've worked so hard on completely deleted. Great, huh? And with all my art programs gone, I can't do any new CG pictures. I tried to get them back too, but big fat surprise, I couldn't re-download them. Gee, the world sure is a peachy place, idn't it?
I just needed someone to cry on, and anyone who knows my art knows that the guy in the picture is Johnny Grey, a character I created. When I made him up, I made him to really be my ideal guy, so who better to get a hug from when I'm feeling down? Too bad there's no one in REAL life who gives a rat. I have to settle for a guy I created in my imagination.
I'm sorry everyone -- I didn't even want to mention this, but I thought I might feel better if I got it all out. Can't say I feel better, just kind of embarrassed. I don't know, I just thought maybe all of you should know --*
Just lately however, a good thing DID happen... my amazing, wonderful, incredible, awesomely fantastical friend, Tez aka. Charla Andrus offered to send me Photoshop 7 on CD. So once I figure out how to work that, I'll get working on requests/trades again. I thought I'd have to retire from doing Invader ZIM fanart and requests and stuff, and honestly, I this close to posting the next picture on Side 7 and announcing it as my last, at least til I got a new CG-ing program. Thank whatever ultimate power lies out there for Tez, and I don't know how in the world I'll ever even begin to thank her ^^ Still, until then, all you who're expecting art trades/requests from me will have to be even more patient, and not just cause of that, but I've got a crappy, misery-inducing job now, so I've got even less time to sit and draw. I appologize greatly for making everyone wait so long, and I just want to thank everyone who likes my art and encourages me to keep going with it and comments on my pics all the time. You make me feel like maybe my life ISN'T worth nothing.
Artwork © Copyright 2002 Taryn Sanders
Just because you can't post any art doesn't make you less amazing than you really are! You'll get back on your feet, and be wonderful again, just give it some time. I hate to sound like some cheesy TV evangelist, but the sun's always shining behind the clouds. HUGS!!!